POWER of the SUBCONSCIOUS MIND

The one thing I have noticed time and time again is that when I allocate time to my own personal development everything is better.  I am happier and life seems to give me what I ask for.  Then I become complacent again and fall back into the day to day rut being reactive again.  Then life returns to it normal ebb of ups and downs.

I am often inspired by something and on a high for a few months.  This happened when my son brought me a copy of The Secret.   I was highly motivated by it for a few months and everything around me started to improve.   In virtually every aspect of my life there was a measurable and significant improvement.

I then decided I would continue to work with the some of the things suggested as well as other things on a daily basis but again I always had an excuse to put them off for another day until I they were almost forgotten.  I am sure many others have the same problem as this.

That was almost a year ago and I have just experienced the worst year of my entire life in terms of personal relationships.  I was introduced to a psychopath and he had a field day playing around with my life.  I am almost 50 and had no experience with such people and there for did not even have inkling as to what was going on.

I will spare you the long sordid details but he took away my girl friend and our baby.  The girl friend is now addicted to drugs (crystal meth) like the guy and he is on the run with arrest warrants to two countries.  Sadly the girlfriend is in hiding with him along with my child.
 
Until this happened I have lead a relatively simple life in that it was peaceful without any drama and intrigue.  I want this simple life again now.  I have been through the emotional wringer feeling extreme depression, hurt, anger, frustration and defeat.  

There was a time when I actually thought about working with my thoughts but I was holding on to hatred and revenge, and did not want to let those feelings go.  I knew that if I did work with my thoughts the only logical conclusion would be to let those go and embrace feelings of love.

I knew that to get what I want I must work with the universe and not against it.  I knew that the negativity I was immersed in would not get me what I wanted but I just could not let go. 

I have finally decided that it is time to get my life back on track.  I have pulled out the secret and played it again along with some other materials I have and can see the futility of what I was doing and how I was just bringing more anger, pain and frustration into my life.

This blog is an attempt to focus my thoughts and develop daily routine for personal development and realignment with the universe.   The mere act of thinking about this stuff on a daily basis will help me break one out of the reactive mode and give the mind constructive things to work with.