POWER of the SUBCONSCIOUS MIND

Archive for April, 2009

Just over a week ago I had to deal with some very negative things that brought back a lot of bad memories and feelings related to being separated from my infant child.  Around the same time I observed a small child about the same age struggling to take his first steps and thought that my child too would be learning to walk by now and I was missing it.  The realization was like a knife stabbed into my heart. 

I also realized that these feeling were not helpful to anyone least of all me.  I resolved that it was time to fully let go.   Not of my love for my child or my expectation (note I do not use the word hope) to be reunited with him one day.  Just of anything that connected me with the negativity of the past year.  This included a decision to turn off the other blog. 

Well this past week has been a major mile stone for me.  A week ago when I resolved to fully let go I really did not appreciate what that entailed.  The last week has been amazing.  I have been overwhelmed by feelings of well being and happiness.  In fact more than that.  LOVE.

It occurred to me that the feelings I have had this past week are probably similar to what a born Christian feels when they believe they are filled with the spirit of Jesus. 

I have deliberately created my own state of euphoria.  I decided to be happy and have made my own happiness.  So is it real some might ask.  Am I in some delusional state of denial of reality? 

What is real?  Is the born again filled with the spirit of Jesus experiencing a more real happiness – from the point of view of a born again they are.  How about a drug addict getting a fix…is their state of euphoria more real or less than mine?   How do you validate happiness?

Years ago I read a short book by John Kehoe called the Practice of Happiness.  It was an inspirational book filled mainly with anecdotal stories but in his book he revealed the secret of happiness.  The secret is so simple that many would dismiss it and even ridicule it.   The secret is to just decide to be happy. 

We really are talking about the power of thoughts to control and direct your state of mind.  I have been working on my happiness for a few months now and avoiding focussing on the negativity.   I did not expect it to be so powerful.   

Another surprise is that there is no room for any feelings of anger and hatred.  They are gone.  There is nothing there anymore.

No one has ever hurt me so deeply and been as vindictive and nasty as my ex-girl friend and mother of my infant son.  At first I thought she was just under the control of the drug addict psychopath who also got her addicted to crystal-meth.  I then came to realize that she was a very active accomplice in many the dastardly deeds perpetrated by the psychopath.  My hurt turned to anger and eventually I even tried to hate her. 

Now if I look at her picture I feel only pity and feelings of love for her.  Not love as before but a compassionate love.  I am also aware that I hurt her deeply and made mistakes and while I don’t believe that my actions can justify what she did to me I accept my responsibility in allowing this psychopath into our lives.  I realize my ex-girl friend is a victim despite her active complicity in games of the psychopath.  So I will help her as well as my child once the Psychopath has abandoned them as I know he will.

If I look at a picture of the Psychopath who deliberately caused me so much pain and suffering the feelings of extreme animosity are also gone.  My feeling is more of indifference and detachment.  I realize how pathetic and sad this person is.   He is only in his mid 30s and already a chronic alcoholic and drug user.  I have also learnt about his estrangement from his family who have not seen or heard from him for more than four years.  My only reservation is that he will continue to hurt everybody that he comes into contact with. 

As for my day to day living, they are seldom in my thoughts.  I do think of my infant son but focus on feelings of love for him and knowing that he is ok.  I miss him.  I know that in the future circumstances will change enabling me to again be part of his life.

The quote “That which does not kill us makes us stronger” by Nietzsche comes to mind after reflecting upon the events of the previous year.  I am definitely stronger as a result of my experiences. 

No one will ever be able to hurt me again nor will I simply react to circumstances allowing them to determine my emotional states.  I am in control as never before.  I am becoming the active creator of my own life and can direct my emotional states.  I now take full responsibility for my life and that also means I have full power.

So in some ways my encounter with the Psychopath was one of serendipity.

I have found myself dragged back into dealing with a very negative matter over the past two days. A psychopath that I had problems with last year has enlisted the help of another nut case and together they published the most false and disgusting allegations about me.

The site they published these allegations on is already totally discredited but there were some things they claimed that needed to be rebutted as circumstantial evidence seemed to suggest I had some involvement.  The old where there is smoke there is fire scenario. 

I have completed the fully and total rebuttal of these allegations and it is time to get back to living my life.

I have learned a valuable lesson from having to revisit this very negative matter.   Some of the bad feelings and anguish started to return as I was forced to focus on formulating the rebuttal.  I have been free of these bad feelings for a few months now and forgot how bad they really are.

This experience has convinced me that it’s time to fully let go.  I have another blog where I wrote about my child being taken away from me.  It was therapeutic to create this blog and vent all my deepest feelings. 

In the blog I attacked the mother and the psychopath who took my son away from me. 

I previously wrote about a message I received about praising and blessing your enemies.  At the time I said I really could not do that but that I had stopped spending time cursing them and instead was starting to focus on positive things.

I actually did stop spending time thinking any negative thoughts towards them and I know I was better off for doing so.   Yet I left the blog running which contains a great deal of negativity and “curses” towards them. 

In leaving this blog I was not being congruent and therefore could not be fully aligned with the universe.  Thus I attracted this problem back to me.  I realize it’s time to follow my own advice to the guy that published the rubbish against me and let go. 

So I have announced I will turn off the blog at the end of the month allowing time for the people directly concerned to read my rebuttal.  I will totally ignore the old blog until it’s time to turn it off.

I know that eventually this matter will resolve itself when the psychopath abandons my ex-girlfriend and the child and I will again be able to see my son.   

In the meantime I have other people in my life including my other children who need me.  It is my duty to be happy for them and give them my love. 

Tomorrow I will wake up to another beautiful new day and wonderful things will happen.

I have been reading some articles by critics of the Law of Attraction. I found a few of particular interest.

The first is titled “Why the Law of Attraction is Wrong, But Why It Still Works” and is found on the Zen Habits forums from Leo.

Leo basically says that the LOA system can work because it encourages people to follow a three step process.

The first step in the process starts with a person actually stating very specifically what he/she wants, which is something Leo acknowledges most people don’t do.

The second step in the process is that it encourages people to focus (think about, visualize, use affirmations etc) on what they want.

The third step in the process is that as a consequence of completing the first two steps people will take action to make it happen. 

This last step actually contradicts the LOA in some ways as the LOA suggests that we just believe and wait to receive and let the universe work in its own mysterious way to manifest our desire.  

Leo’s basic contention is that the LOA is wrong but the people who practice LOA might get results because they follow steps that result in action that helps make their stated desire a reality.  Leo suggests that the final step of taking action naturally follows on from the first two steps and the combination of these will, more likely than not, make desire or goal come true.  This is a logical interpretation of what might be occurring and removes any mystic or cosmic force from the equation.

Leo also rejects the idea that our thoughts can go out into the physical world and can influence it saying that there is no scientific evidence to support the LOA theory and is not scientific.

While I agree with Leo that the LOA is just a theory and cannot be scientifically proven or disproven I disagree with Leo that thoughts cannot influence the physical would. 

The title of this site is the Power of Thoughts and my belief in their power, that they are real forces that extend beyond the limitations of our mind within our physical bodies, is not based on a faith or desire to believe in Supreme Being or cosmic force.  It comes from my own very logical analyses of my total life experience that includes all that I have learnt and observed. 

René Descartes stated “I think, therefore I am” as a starting point for confirming our existence.

Those that accept living their life within the apparent limitations of our physical world and only accepting that which can be scientifically proven are basically saying “I am, therefore I think”.

I will not even attempt to try to prove here the power of thoughts.  I will just say that for me there is just way too much unexplained phenomenon that science has absolutely no explanation for.  There are so many documented cases involving identical twins, idiot savants etc.

I am willing to concede that the LOA might be wrong.  It might not work the way its proponents claim but it is based on ideas that should not be dismissed so quickly.